Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I have been sulking.

I have not been my usual chipper self. If there is anything that I could change about myself, it would be that I'd like to get rid of my depressive tendencies. I tend to focus on something that I perceive to be wrong with my life and then blow it all out of proportion so that I becomes the center of my attention for weeks. Of course, my focus these days is usually on Rett Syndrome and what a crappy thing it is, but I remember that even before I had kids, I would get the same feeling about something totally different - like maybe that I didn't have a boyfriend or my job sucked or that everyone was having fun except for me... Then I wallow in self-pity and I feel sorry for myself. This takes up a lot of my time. Time when I could be off going on a hike and feeling the sun on my face. It doesn't make much sense, but it's a big part of me.

3 comments:

yarn shop girl said...

we all need a pity party every once in a while,I think it helps us process things and get through them.

Noel said...

It is quite normal like this. Sometime, I have that kind of feeling too.

If one knows where the problem is, it has already heeled at least 50%. Then keep working on the other half of 50% :)

Talking the problem like this certainly helps. I will talk to you sometime today on the road :)

Take good care of yourself and love .

The MacDonald Family said...

From a fellow rett mom let me tell you that you have a right to wallow in self pitty and sulk. We have a bit more on our plates than the average Joe. I do the same thing at times and I actually think it's kinda therapeutic. Just know that you'll always bounce back. Hugs from MI.